Need To Keep Busy

I don't know about anyone else, but WOW! is this season hard. Like today I had someone knock on the door and ask if I had any children who wanted to meet Santa who was on a float travelling around our Street.

"No! No children"
"No! No children who want to meet Santa"
...No! No children to make Christmas enjoyable.

I've managed to keep myself busy though. Working on a production at church which has led to all manner of busy-ness like,  filming, directing, editing, writing, singing, collecting branches, buying material...

I've needed to. On the two occasions I stopped and literally do nothing but relax, I broke down.

Sadness overwhelmed me as another year of this journey draws to an unsuccessful close.

And this season brings so many reminders, like today's visitors and the random 'Baby's First Christmas' baubles which had been displayed next to the robin I was looking for!

At least if I keep busy, I don't have time to think about what is missing from my life and get upset. At least if I keep busy I don't give my imagination the chance to wonder what life could have been, if only...

This is my way of coping through the family-orientated Christmas season. Right or wrong, it's just what I need to do.

I pray you cope better than I am and that God is gracious to you during the Christmas season!