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Hi. Welcome to my "taboo" blog. My name is Steph, and when I first started this, I was still in my thirties. In 2017, I switch decades! I am a Christian, so underlying everything I do and say is the Word of God, and the foundational truths I have learnt over the years. This doesn't mean I'm perfect - I am human. It just means I recognise I need God's help to live this life and try to live out His way, as best I can. So that's me in a nutshell. Thanks for taking the time to read through my blog, I hope you draw strength, hope or encouragement from what you read.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

The Bubble of Time

When you're as acutely aware of time cycle as a woman who is TTC, that moment when you're waiting for one cycle to end is excruciatingly slow - especially if it's late.

Waiting to find out if this cycle will end to mark the beginning of the next cycle, or to mark the beginning of new life is one of the hardest things about TTC I think. But it's even more-so when there is an unexpected delay. It's like suddenly, you're in a bubble, alone. Life carries on around you, but you're hidden away inside this moment of waiting which is heavily dependent on time, yet totally irrespective of it.

Everyone can see you, interact with you, as you go through the motions of each day: work, eat, socialise, whatever the day calls for; but deep down, you're not really there. Deep down you know you're locked in your bubble, thinking about your cycle, thinking about the delay, wondering if you're late for a reason and counting down the hours till you can do a pregnancy test. Wondering if anything you've done since ovulation, could have had a negative impact.

The bubble.
Waiting with a pounding heart to find out what the outcome will be.
In your bubble.
Alone, because Hubby can't relate to this aspect of the cycle.
It's your body.
Your mind.
Your bubble.

Father God, I pray for every woman who is waiting, that You would grant her peace. May she find rest in You and draw strength from You in her wait. In Jesus's name I pray.